Working it!

I love my son.  He is adorable, loving, hilarious...but of course I'm biased.  I had a very normal pregnancy....and a very crazy, somewhat early delivery.  The one thing I curse about having my beloved son?  Pregnancy weight gain.  Ugh.

It's definitely not a secret that I was on Weight Watchers awhile back.  I lost 135 pounds and kept it off until I got pregnant with Dexter.  I went from a huge size to wearing a medium and sometimes a small.  It was a great feeling.  I could buy cute things off the clearance rack at Kohl's.  I could shop all the great sales that only ever had small sizes left.  I felt great. 

Right before I found out I was pregnant, I bought a ton of cute, new clothes from Ann Taylor, New York & Company, and Banana Republic (my favorite store), all for like 68347374% off.  Then, I found out I was pregnant.  I kept my pregnancy a secret until I reached my second trimester, and I couldn't really wear any of the clothes I bought because by the time that season rolled around, it would have been pretty obvious I was pregnant. 

Today, I was looking through some things and found this huge bag of clothing, with the tags still on, that I purchased and never was able to wear.  It was exciting to find new clothes (thank goodness for classic pieces!), but kind of depressing because I love what I bought and want to wear them.  The cream colored trousers with brown pinstripes alone are worth putting down that extra piece of pizza!

I went back to Weight Watchers a few weeks ago.  I've lost 17 pounds and counting.  I know to some people out there who look at me it's like, big deal.  To me, it is a big deal.  I know people look at me and judge me based on my weight.  I know there are people who won't even think any of my weight loss matters until I am back to where I was pre-baby.  Frankly, as much as words hurt (and fyi, I do hear what you say...perfect strangers and acquaintances alike) I can't let other people keep me from accomplishing my goal. 

Anyway, that's where I am.  I'm not perfect, but I deserve the chance to improve myself just like everyone else.  And, he was worth it!