I wish I was more consistent here. I feel like I can't say everything I want to for fear of penalty. But seriously, things are crap lately. I feel like we can't catch a break no matter what we do. I've been trying to avoid social media because frankly every time I hear someone getting something we've prayed so hard for and worked so hard for the past 7 years and we still haven't gotten, it brings tears to my eyes. I'm so happy for the people who are receiving good things. I feel like a failure.
I've heard and been living all of the "God won't give you more than you can handle", "sometimes prayers are answered in ways other than you think", etc. I'm struggling with that. If one more bad thing happens, I must don't think I can take it. I've been keeping this in but have seen a few others let it out lately and it's time. I know life isn't fair. I just need it to be fair for us once in awhile.
I can't say everything due to certain pars of my life, but I can say I've had enough and I'm at my breaking point.